i didn't know where to put this or even how to write it but for some reason i feel it needs to be done and the thought of it brings me closer to you.

ive been carrying two of your shirts for hours... the smell causes a flood of memories .. bring back the years i spent with you... where you became my hero, mentor, teacher, my best friend. you were always there and you never stopped. now I'm sitting in the house that we transformed in to a community together... trying to pick up where you left off. Often wishing that you were here to guide me and always asking my self "what would david do?".. i feel your presence every time i step into the basement... i know you would be proud of us for finding comfort in each other... I'm doing the best that i can. Our trees came back this year... i wish that you would read this or that i could have one last chance to talk to you. Thank you for taking me in... teaching me.. loving me... being the amazing person that you were. i fight myself on a daily basis ... trying to avoid all the what ifs and things i wish i would have said or done. I would have never left your side if i knew our time was going to be cut so short. I will only be so lucky to have one day made an impact on the world in the way that you did. You should have seen that tiny church in the middle of nowhere ... the hundreds of people that showed up for you. You are loved by more people that I think you ever knew. I hope that you have found some sort of peace...

I will bring you with me everywhere I go for the rest of my life. I love you David.